I have a complex life seriously. Trying to me be but not really so. The world seems so mean and bad, life is hard. Living is harder. I have this big problem now... WHERE AM I SUPPOSE TO GO AFTER I GRADUATE AFTER SEC 4 ???
Lasalle College of the Arts, Singapore.
Or Poly ?? JC
Yesterday I ask my mum about my options and you know what she said?
"If you go into the useless Arts school don't ever come back home !!" OK maybe the school fees aren't that cheap
( Evon said her ballet shoe cost $40 !! And she is in LASALLE by the way.) Hey ! I have a dream OK, and that dream is to ENTER LASALLE and learn to become a better ACTRESS, then I may become a STAGE THREATER ACTRESS!!!
Muhahah. AWESOME AYE ??
Anyway today I went out Evon and Amira to relax after being SUPER UPSET! 2 Events
1 Events: (Christelle And Amelia Tragic Ending. To summarized version: Both were having a cold war. A lot of events, missing shoe, drama, etc. And Hui Shi and I were tangled inside trying to be the mediator but sadly failed. Things got out of hand and parents and teachers got involved. Then both are having a cold war with us now.
UNEXPECTED ENDING AYE ??)
2 Event : ( Recently it happened my chat buddy left me. He said it
"IM SORRY BUT I HAVE TO FORGET U" after he forwarded Christelle's message:
"YOU ASK HER LAH, YOU ALL ALWAYS SMS EACH OTHER WAT? ASK ME FOR WAT? SEE IF SHE STILL HAVE THE FACE TO EVENT TALK ABT IT OR NOT? SHE YTD STILL CAN SMS TO RECOMMEND DONNO WAT STUPID APP, IF YOU MANAGE TO CONTACT HER, PLS PLS ASK HER TO STOP MSGING ME, BEST, DELETE MY CONTACT :) THX :)" Maybe she said more to him or something I was just so upset that I broke down and cried. Meanwhile, my phone was playing this song.
http://youtu.be/e2Tsjs6Iblk ( You can imagine how much the impact of feeling abandoned was burning up my eye when I tried to hold it in.) I was scared for a moment I feel lost like a REAL LONER. I tried calling Amira but that girl is working so end up I call my senior JIA ZHENG who is really a good friend. Her assurance made me feel LOVED!! (
haha I know this sound so not EVIL-LYNISH) Anyway, after much thought, I found myself more OK plus with a night of pondering I became stronger. I won't allow him near my heart anymore, he hurt me and I don’t like the feeling of it. But it still took awhile to HEAL. <3.
Today my aim was to help Evon learn how to ride a bike
( the outcome was not what I expected. Haha but still we had fun. )I learn new knowledge like the LASELLE AUDITION requires a Singapore monologue and another American Monologue/ Classic song. She shared some experience and some unpleasant events with me. After long hours
( 2hours only) of cycling, we went to White Sands to have the FAT-FREE YOUGULT !! We settled down at KOPITIAM to have our lunch and you know what I ate ??? 3 plates of dumpling prawn and 2 plates of prawn chee Chong fan.
( GLUTEN ?? YES ! ) Anyway, it was just embarrassing when the aunty rang the bell continuously for me to notice but I didn’t know.
LASTLY, that place reminds me of my trip with SAMMY I was supposed to find a dress/ clothes-pants for my Grey shoe BUT ... I HAD NO SENSE OF FASHION!!
( UNBELIEVABLE RIGHT ?? BELIEVE IT ! ) SAMMY SAID I LOOK LIKE JESSSIA FORM SNSD WITH MY HAIR AND PERSONALITY! Omg !! She looks .... ( no words to describe )
Lastly, I remember this incident which I made Christelle cry when the SMP 30 students came I ask them to compare between me and her. Dedicate this song to you as an apology.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3Rvjfm5FYHM
Some things to take note...
1. Wear clothes that fit your personality
2. Evelyn may suit cool clothes ( one tank top "light blue" with half shirt and dancing pants ) By SAMMY
3.Fat people like me not advisable to wear tight clothes.
4.Cotton on doesn't suit me
5. Evelyn suits simple clothes.
6. Grey clothes are just not my style.
7.Amira said I think too negative.
8. I think too much.
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